Day 24 Grown Up

As i grow up and with comfort and knowledge from my friends i have molded into a responsible adult and now that i have taken my flight into an actual life of responsibility and stability Ive been very strong lately. I make better decisions, im able to turn down fun just to be responsible and i feel like an adult now i don't just know im an adult i feel that way, So i wanna thank my current household family Chip and Vicki Caruana For molding me into a REAL adult and im so thankful. I thank Robyn Coffman for her advice and her molding me to notice my reality and giving me courage and strength to move forward and to stop digging my past from the ground. All my friends at Harvest temple Wesley 1&2 john, jonmark, drew AHHHHH I hate naming names lol EVERYBODY!!! For being an awesome example for me and making me a stronger person!

MOST OF ALL i thank GOD for knowing me inside out and being the best father in all!

Day 25 Fractured Heart

Today is my Former high school homecoming game, and i attend. Tonight was a painful experience, but its had pleasure along the way and i realized the importance in waiting for the right person in a relationship. I know that God understands me and how im different and not among his relationship standards. I try my hardness to keep those boundaries god has set for me, and ive been doing a great job. But tonight made it really hard. To make a long story short ,a person whom i have been infatuated with has portrayed there feelings for me and i was blown away and i didn't know how to respond to it so i kept quiet and responded only for closure. Then another friend of mine told me the some what same thing, and i had to remain just friends. But to make everything worse, a friend of my friend John decides to kiss me in front of hundreds of people. I felt humiliated and hurt. I went home after wards and just sat down in my back yard and i just though and listened to what God had to tell me.


Granted i did want to start a relationship but i wanted Gods approval, and he said no. I understand why , i leave Florida in 25 days relationship is a big no no, and ive never really dated someone so i dont know if it would take me off focus with god. And trust me i dont need another distraction. So im really thankful that god is giving me direct answers, and i will never take him for granted. Thanks God!!!!!!