Day 26 - COLLEGE

I've figured out all of my need's for college and i have to raise about $840 for dance stuff and books, Air fare, insurance and housing. Im in stress cause i leave in 26 days and i have to do all of this. I have to stay strong and not give up and breakdown. It's so hard being on your own doing this. I thankful i have friends a foundation to help me through this.


Lord i pray for strength and ho;e that i will get this taken care of all of this madness! Your and Awesome god and i know you'll make it all happen. Love you lord and thank you so much.

Amen
Brandon

Day 27 The Quiet Place

Ive been sulking a lot lately because i feel that I'm part of the whole anymore. My absences isn't charming ether but i just wanted open arms and smiling faces. I feel so out of place, I never know the out come of things, i feel unintelligent around the solid crew. I look to my left and right in selfishness and complaint because i wish i had the relationship with god the way he does, or i wish my out come of life would shine like hers. I had to slap myself in the face and realize that my relationship with the lord is strong. I'm still getting to know him more cause i sent my entire walk since 15 making god get to know me, but he was already there! I imagine how boring it must be for some one to tell you over and over and over about them self's and there situations and you already know.

That's why God is so amazing because he continue to help me knowing that i was fragile,he didn't slap me with reality with i was weary , he still listen to what i had to say and nerchared me. So god i thank you for what you've done in my life and im so thankful that your the father i never had. God help me to ignore my self when i get jealous or envious, God i don't care that probably no one reads this ...at all, that i do inform but i still ignored, God you are the only one that matters and im thankful that your reading this i love you and forgive me for my ugliness and wishing to be someone different you love me for who i am and im so thankful for it!


Amen
Brandon

Day 28 Commitment

I've come to term with myself that i need to stay committed to this rehabilitation process. I know if i stay committed it will build my instinct on having my daily time with the lord. Hopefully i wont get too distracted. Today i did some super good deeds for momz and pops around the house. Like cleaning really good and organizing and just making everything so when they come home they will smile!

I know that god has all ready started to make a difference into my life. I'm noticing thing get better and things getting worse, life is such an battle.I know that ill be able to continue with this, I'm having wants and urges to do this, and its already making me better.


So lord i thank you for your awesome work your doing on me. I wont disappoint you at all. Your so on top of my life I'm so thankful that your guiding me. You make me complete and i love you God.

Amen
Brandon